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I have been here before.

Same thoughts.

Same emotions.

Same expletives.

Well, maybe different expletives.

This time, more intensive.

When I say I wanna escape,

Words can't describe

The direction.

The rapidity.

The destination.

Needless to say,

Who I've been hates who I am.

Who I've been hates who I am.

Discover the paradox displayed.

Thoughts.

Emotions.

Direction.

Destination.

Decipher the obvious or let me be.

"Et Tu, Brute?"

There comes a time in everyones lives that they feel a sense of utmost betrayal, not from any outside source or being, but from the innermost crevices of our own soul.

Or maybe its just me...

The Darkest Hour

So, I wrote this last night at 1:00am. Don't look too much into it...

Emotionless

Blank stares,

like x-ray vision,

looking off into oblivion

Into my own fears, regrets and wishes.

Trapped

in the hustling and the bustling

of the day, week, month, year.

In the silence and lonesome that haunts me

Nostalgia

It hurts and heals,

Develops and destroys.

I wish for nothing less than a pause

- A stand still -

Rather, decay consumes.

I digress.

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You think it sounds good.

Your thoughts deceive you.

There is nothing good about it - 

other than its sickening truth

written between the lines

and on my heart

[with pins and needles and sleepless nights]

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Anyway, we have been interviewing candidates for the Student Senate this week and will finish up tomorrow. There have been some great people to come through the doors. I am bummed I can't take them all. We decided to spice things up in the interviews, and did so by adding an interview question: "If you could have a superpower, what would you have and why?" Its great to see everyones face lighten up when we ask the question (I know, we are so intimidating - and/or dry - in our interviews). I thought about it for myself and came up with a superpower. Unfortunately for you [if you want to consider it unfortunate], I am not gonna share it today. You will just need to wait until my next post, and I will write ALL ABOUT IT. Until then, what superpower would you have and why?

Over and out. 

I Have

 Something to Say. FINALLY.

A year and a half later, I have something to say. I suppose I have had something to say all this time, but I was just not in a blogging mood.

But now I am, I guess. It all started when a friend of mine *cough*ashley*cough* told me to start updating it... So here I am.

I guess I will give a quick run down of my past two years... Lets see:

- In February of 2009, I started a group called Project: 1200 to fight the Big Tobacco industry. You can find all kind of information at projecttwelvehundred.blogspot.com or on facebook.

- I joined student government at Salt Lake Community College (SLCC for short).
     - Summer 2009 :: Senator
     - Fall 2009 :: Senate Region Chair
     - Spring 2010 - Present :: Executive Vice President of the Student Association at SLCC

- Joined the Singles Ward in Jan 2010
     - Considering transferring to the Deaf Ward real soon. Any thoughts?

- August 2010, I went to the Crow Fair in Montana. It was a week of sleeping in a tipi, hearing/watching crow dancing/chanting/parading/etc. It was AMAZING! We did some sight seeing, and I had lots of 1:1 time with my own Native (James Takes Enemy), where he told me all kinds of stories, visions, beliefs, etc. of Crow culture. I can't wait to go back...

- September 2010 was a crazy one...
     - I swear everyone decided to stop living that month. Lots of deaths. :( But I won't go into detail - for your sake.
     - I went to Miami, FL the last week of the month with the Executive Council of SLCC's Student Association. We visited Miami Dade College and Broward College. The day before we went home, we stopped by Disney World... No big deal though.

- November 5: Remember remember, the 5th of November. The Gunpowder Treason and Plot. And I know of no reason why the Gunpowder Treason should ever be forgot.

- December 2010:
     - Epic Game Nights galore... Lots of game nights that lasted well into the morning. GOOD TIMES!
     - I got a PGF. 'Nuff said.

And that will be good for now. Maybe tomorrow I will write all about my New Years resolutions. Check back, YO!